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... the more i hear about other worlds the less i want to go to any of them

30 seems like a good retirement age for an agent right
they either send you on a suicide mission or take you out back for disposal
that's the pension
probably why peter looks so old huh

let me know what she says
we should catch up.

kinda feel like this is an upgrade then 4 both of u i guess the captain can send you guys on suicide missions or shoot you behind the Dennys but thats different from the people who gave ou orders i guess its better? 10-4 ill keep you posted

oh as long as we can get pancakes first
kidding but yes it's better
the captain doesnt control every aspect of my life
im free to do what i like on my own schedule
nobodys making me do stupid questioning sessions

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did u seriously type "thumbs up emoji"???? holy shit you are fucking adorable questioning sessions? like interrogations? man those fucking suck from both sides of it honestly.

i like the idea of it more than the actuality. shrug emoji.
and was too lazy to scroll to find it

no not quite interrogations
debriefings after missions, justifying mistakes or missed objectives or
psych evals that were thinly veiled attempts at testing loyalty and ensuring compliance more than actual concern for mental health
those sorts of things.
never let them break you when you can break yourself first, that's the rule.

ew having to admit where you fucked up to your boss is the worst thing you got psych evals? man i really got screwed. even before the cult i had to come in to work the day after finding out some sick son of a bitch was taxidermying kids in his barn. walk in on that and im supposed to do paperwork about it the next day? fucck that noise oh shit im so good at that. i can break myself in like 100 ways. im halfway to being a secret agent already.

i rarely messed up but the mission report process was intense by design
keep you in line
no paperwork for me though ugh

the psych evals were less how are you doing welfare check
it was more poking holes and providing them insight for better ways to control you. making sure you weren't questioning or wavering.
if you don't play along they find harsher ways.
at least i got to keep my mind relatively in tact because i acted through my own best interests
so i thought.
do you remember sarge? they messed him up real bad. kept him on ice between missions, wasnt allowed his own name. that's the sort of thing they hold over you.

taxidermy kids sounds horrific. dont think i could ever be a cop. having to do things by the book when it's that sort of creep

haha :( think most of us are broken sorts around here, im surprised we somehow bring out the best in each other

no one told me being an officer was like 60% paperwork and shitty pay and 5 am shifts oh mind games yeah trying to figure out how to best fuck you over sarge 🧠🧠🧠🤔 maybe? but you know my memory kinda remember someone who said something about memory wipes or something? prooooobably the guy i talked to about being a sleeper agent yeah the dead kids is something no amount of training prepares you for and you wanna hear his excuse? they trespassed cuz there was a rumor his barn was haunted so he killed them and stuffed them because he wanted to show them what a real haunted barn was like i wish i coulda just shot the fucker but noooooooo think u need to be broken to survive here normal folks would go crazy and maybe there were some and they got eaten by the ship immediately so we never even knew

capitalism kills

keep me just fucked up enough to be dependent on them

yes, him. famous wwii war hero, captain america's best friend turn hydra assassin after getting captured behind enemy lines
they controlled him with code words
fried his memories out whenever he started to gain awareness
he and i gained our freedom that same day, both went into hiding
somebody tried to smoke him out by wearing his face to blow up the un
killed the king of wakanda, it was a whole international incident turned manhunt that tore the avengers in two
that's how scott got arrested, he told me a bit about the raft.
entire fucking prison for people like me out in the middle of the ocean.
... they find one way or another to control us.

you know, malcolm told me a story that was a bit on the opposite end of the situation. how he tracked down a serial killer in a barn, who started threatening him. and the sheriff barged in and shot and killed the suspect, so malcolm punched him and got himself fired from the fbi.
anyway sucks you couldn't shoot that monster because clearly he deserved it

honestly. i'm always bracing for things to get worse. but. i don't know. it's not like i have more than anecdotes to back up the nature of the previous cruise. because ours doesn't feel that bad in comparison.
i just cant figure out why
we have plenty of dumbshit motherfuckers.

wait Waitwaitwait hold up here a sec Sarge is BUCKY? bucky Barnes winter soldier that guy? that was sarge???? WHAT THE FUCK???! HOW?

yeah, sergeant james buchanan barnes
didnt want to be called that

lots of people hiding from their past and all.
it was weird knowing things about his past and future that he didnt

yeah thatd be weird especially cuz i know his whole life from a movie so like that would have been awkard really awkward dude that guy is actually Bucky? like for reals? not just pretending?

yeah there's a lot of documentaries and some smithsonian exhibit... i'd hate to come across something like that of myself
the comic book was weird enough and it's not even actually me

yeah? yeah not like the guy that was wearing his face
zemo
though honestly it was about time somebody held the avengers responsible

oof a whole exhibit? awwwwwkard theres a bunch of videos of me being tortured broadcast all over the place back home but thats kinda different wait you got a comic with you in it? are you a comic book character? that is the coolest shit Ava.

... yeah youve mentioned that before
thats really messed up

no no it's not me it's this guy that dresses kinda like me
and has powers kinda like mine
and calls himself ghost
but he's this computer nerd that lost his girlfriend and went kinda crazy
and then got exploded kinda like me except not like me at all
i'll let you borrow it

maaaaaaan hope i dont get that shit from home didnt think about it but that could show up here huh gonna burn it so fucking fast so its an au genderswap of you? but with a tragic backstory of someone getting fridged thats super weird

yuck yeah you could probably put in a request with friday
ask her to avoid certain things even if they seem like they "belong" to you
dont think shes trying to harm anyone you know??

yeah bit like that
like if somebody watched some leaked security footage of me and wanted to put it in a comic book
and obviously they dont know who is under the mask since my identity is all secret
so they made up some weird backstory
like of course it's so skinny lame white dude
no offense

think she'd do that? maybe ill ask her when i ask about putting pickels in the horse hey come on now us skinny lame white dudes have never seen ourselves represented in media before so we gotta be in everything forever thems the rules

if the intrinsic bias toward white dudes doing everything keeps my identity hidden
jokes on them

feel free to blame me for anything i wont even remember not doing it yeah sure i probably walked through a wall and took all the sugar packets from the cafe cant prove i didnt i guess but yea i wanna borrow the comic book have been trying to read books from the library but not really working reading sucks

hah people usually mistake my suit for what gives me my abilities
... actually you know what?
stop by my room for the comic and i'll let you try it on.
might be a bit tight in bits but think you could get it to fit

wait seriously? THATS SO FUCKING COOL fuck yes. finally being scrawny is gonna pay off if that fits

yeah the stabilizing energy currents shouldn't affect you in any way

youve ever cosplay??

if anyone needs some stabilizing currents its me nah. id feel kinda dumb cuz i dont look like anyone and im 27

pft we need one of those aura healing crystal ladies

yeah but if you had to whod you go as??

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