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[In news that is simultaneously good and bad, Carlisle knows whether or not people would notice if he died.]
They noticed my absence when I did not report to the church. Had it not been for that, perhaps they would have noticed because of my family name -- not because of me as an individual.
They noticed my absence when I did not report to the church. Had it not been for that, perhaps they would have noticed because of my family name -- not because of me as an individual.
Kinda famous huh?
I dunno. I wish I had some wise words or something, but I don't. I just keep going because I'm too much of a coward to die.
[Which is why he puts himself in very dangerous situations with the vague hope something else will kill him so he doesn't have to.]
I dunno. I wish I had some wise words or something, but I don't. I just keep going because I'm too much of a coward to die.
[Which is why he puts himself in very dangerous situations with the vague hope something else will kill him so he doesn't have to.]
[He shakes his head at Pratt's question; no, he's not famous so much as his family, but explaining how incredible they were compared to him just makes him feel small, so he avoids it for now.]
I can relate, unfortunately. I considered throwing myself into the Cottonmouth River so many times, but could not find the strength to do it. I feared what would happen to those around me if I continued to live among them, but also what would become of me in death. Would there be enough of my essence left to let me rejoin the cycle? Would my goddess allow it even if there was? And what of my lineage? What would I leave behind?
Of course, now that I have experienced my end and I find it worse than I imagined, I know not if my cowardice was the right choice. For better or for worse, I am still here.
I can relate, unfortunately. I considered throwing myself into the Cottonmouth River so many times, but could not find the strength to do it. I feared what would happen to those around me if I continued to live among them, but also what would become of me in death. Would there be enough of my essence left to let me rejoin the cycle? Would my goddess allow it even if there was? And what of my lineage? What would I leave behind?
Of course, now that I have experienced my end and I find it worse than I imagined, I know not if my cowardice was the right choice. For better or for worse, I am still here.
I'm too scared. I dunno what'll happen to me when I die. I don't think Eden's Gate was right, in fact I know it was all bullshit but then... what if it's not? What if the Father was telling the truth and I'm damned forever.
I don't know. I'll never know until it actually happens. I thought maybe when I showed up in Hadriel that had been me dying, that I was in purgatory until I either atoned or did something really worthy of punishment. But I don't think that was it.
It's just.. What happened, happened. And we can't change it, even if our choices were the wrong ones. So I guess we just keep on with what we're doing and hope we learn from our mistakes.
I don't know. I'll never know until it actually happens. I thought maybe when I showed up in Hadriel that had been me dying, that I was in purgatory until I either atoned or did something really worthy of punishment. But I don't think that was it.
It's just.. What happened, happened. And we can't change it, even if our choices were the wrong ones. So I guess we just keep on with what we're doing and hope we learn from our mistakes.
I suppose we will.
[He may still be damned forever, given he's not sure he was offered any right choices in life. He stayed alive, damning the people of Bear Den when he died and rose as a Revenant; if he'd died earlier, perhaps he'd have risen all the same. It's not as though he was given the choice of perishing when he failed his coming-of-age ceremony, as his family made sure he lived.
No, he refuses to blame them for his affliction. They didn't know. None of them could have known. The hardest part is having no one to truly blame for his problems, leaving Carlisle to turn on himself rather than face the truth that most of what happened to him is just unfortunate circumstance.]
I will work on my own atonement when my energies are once more in order, and I can heal your hand. I trust I will have learned from the mistakes I made.
[And not raise any zombie goldfish.]
[He may still be damned forever, given he's not sure he was offered any right choices in life. He stayed alive, damning the people of Bear Den when he died and rose as a Revenant; if he'd died earlier, perhaps he'd have risen all the same. It's not as though he was given the choice of perishing when he failed his coming-of-age ceremony, as his family made sure he lived.
No, he refuses to blame them for his affliction. They didn't know. None of them could have known. The hardest part is having no one to truly blame for his problems, leaving Carlisle to turn on himself rather than face the truth that most of what happened to him is just unfortunate circumstance.]
I will work on my own atonement when my energies are once more in order, and I can heal your hand. I trust I will have learned from the mistakes I made.
[And not raise any zombie goldfish.]
We got this.
And you know, if we don't, then we'll deal I guess. Either way, it's gonna be okay.
[He sounds like he means it, and not that he's just saying something that's been repeated to him by everyone forever. Maybe it really will be okay.]
And you know, if we don't, then we'll deal I guess. Either way, it's gonna be okay.
[He sounds like he means it, and not that he's just saying something that's been repeated to him by everyone forever. Maybe it really will be okay.]
[And when Pratt makes it sound like he means it, it makes Carlisle feel like he can believe it, too.]
Of course.
[Said very much in the way he often spoke in Hadriel. Maybe he's feeling just a little more hopeful.]
I will contact you when I am able to heal again. Until then, please be safe, Deputy.
Of course.
[Said very much in the way he often spoke in Hadriel. Maybe he's feeling just a little more hopeful.]
I will contact you when I am able to heal again. Until then, please be safe, Deputy.
Deputy, if I may have a moment of your time, I have a question for you.
[Attached is a blurry photo of what appears to be the aberration that's been hanging around the cattle since shortly after the Kieran incident.]
What is this?
[Attached is a blurry photo of what appears to be the aberration that's been hanging around the cattle since shortly after the Kieran incident.]
What is this?
Edited 2020-07-07 21:48 (UTC)
hey are you near the AZ rn
kind of an emergency
[ STACI WE GOT A JINGLE JANGLE PROBLEM. CARLISLE'S GOIN' NUTS ]
kind of an emergency
[ STACI WE GOT A JINGLE JANGLE PROBLEM. CARLISLE'S GOIN' NUTS ]
I can be. What's up?
Actual emergency or they ran out of pork rinds sort of emergency?
Actual emergency or they ran out of pork rinds sort of emergency?
Edited 2020-07-11 06:11 (UTC)
[ It's a couple minutes before she responds, hope that's not too worrying. When she does, it's audio, and she sounds short of breath and a little bit frantic. ]
Actual emergency! It - it's Carlisle, something's really wrong with him!
Actual emergency! It - it's Carlisle, something's really wrong with him!
[That is indeed worrying. He is worried. More so than usual even!!]
Is he glowing?
Okay that sounds weird, but it's important.
Is he glowing?
Okay that sounds weird, but it's important.
Like a local legend. I dunno if you have them in your world, but in mine there's a lake where people claim to have seen a sea monster but no one can prove it so most people don't believe it, but some swear it's true.
The monster is called a cryptid.
That's ours.
The monster is called a cryptid.
That's ours.
Umm...
[ Hang on let her just peek out of her hiding spot for a sec. Her voice is hushed now, she doesn't want him to hear her. ]
No, he's not. I mean, his eyes are, but they're always like that. He's... what is he doing?
[ Hang on let her just peek out of her hiding spot for a sec. Her voice is hushed now, she doesn't want him to hear her. ]
No, he's not. I mean, his eyes are, but they're always like that. He's... what is he doing?
Edited 2020-07-13 04:34 (UTC)
I am fairly certain I can prove I have seen this creature.
[Another attachment comes in, a second picture of the Thing in the Fields; this time, the creature is looking his way, its eyes glowing so vibrantly that they tint the rest of the photo.]
There it is. This is not a 'cryptid.' It is quite real, and it is sitting among the cattle. What is it doing out there, and why does it have a bell on its neck?
[Another attachment comes in, a second picture of the Thing in the Fields; this time, the creature is looking his way, its eyes glowing so vibrantly that they tint the rest of the photo.]
There it is. This is not a 'cryptid.' It is quite real, and it is sitting among the cattle. What is it doing out there, and why does it have a bell on its neck?
Not glowing is good. Okay, that's good. We can work with that.
You're in the barn? By the barn? I'm on my way.
[Haha. This is fine everything is fine his friend just might be about to kill everyone it's cool.]
You're in the barn? By the barn? I'm on my way.
[Haha. This is fine everything is fine his friend just might be about to kill everyone it's cool.]
No, I'm - I'm trying to keep him away from the barn. He's got some kind of ... death aura going on? There's a big ring of dead plants.
[ She almost got caught in it! That was fun. ]
[ She almost got caught in it! That was fun. ]
Yeah stay away from that. The not glowing means it's probably not going to grow. Probably. Maybe.
[Where is she where is she. One very panicked deputy heading that way at a run.]
You didn't touch him right?
[Where is she where is she. One very panicked deputy heading that way at a run.]
You didn't touch him right?
Edited 2020-07-19 00:43 (UTC)
That's what everyone who's seen a UFO or a monster says.
The bell is so that it doesn't sneak up on people. And it's guarding the cattle.
[Gosh, obviously Carlisle.]
The bell is so that it doesn't sneak up on people. And it's guarding the cattle.
[Gosh, obviously Carlisle.]
Yes, it does seem to have an unusual attachment to them, particularly for an aberration.
How long as this been here? And why was I not informed?
How long as this been here? And why was I not informed?
It's name is Scraps, be nice to it, it's timid.
[You know.. like its creator. Speaking of...]
So remember the whole thing with Kieran?
Since then.
[You know.. like its creator. Speaking of...]
So remember the whole thing with Kieran?
Since then.
Right. Yeah, no, I'm not getting near him. He's just ... sitting around, right now. I think he lost track of me.
[ .... Waaaaait a sec, though, somebody sounds entirely too familiar with this phenomenon. ]
Has this happened before?
[ .... Waaaaait a sec, though, somebody sounds entirely too familiar with this phenomenon. ]
Has this happened before?
[WHAT.]
This cannot be the same abomination. That one was destroyed, was it not? Did Ben not destroy it?
[Not that it would matter, so long as the magic animating it — his magic — had more bones nearby to inhabit.]
This cannot be the same abomination. That one was destroyed, was it not? Did Ben not destroy it?
[Not that it would matter, so long as the magic animating it — his magic — had more bones nearby to inhabit.]
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