theweakhavepurpose | Hadriel Inbox

No I don't. I absolutely do not.

But lots of other people deserved better. Most of them are dead now.

Nobody deserves what you went through. Can you accept that, at least? [she looks hopeful]

And I'm sorry to hear that.

[ He is so close to saying he deserved it. That it was his punishment, his penance for being a Sinner. But... but he hesitates looking to the side for a second.]

I guess. I ... suppose that's true at least.

[He wouldn't wish what happened to him on anyone. Including the people who did it to him.]

Yeah. We lost a lot of good people. I don't know how our area will recover. Or if it will.

[she smiles at him encouragingly]

It's definitely true.

[and that makes him a good person]

I don't know. I wish I could say that it will definitely get better, but I can't. I am sorry for your losses, though.

[He will never believe that no matter how much she tells him.]

Thanks. And you too, I'm sorry it all turned out like that. It sounded like you had a good thing going in the future. For a while anyway.

[that's not going to stop her from telling him]

We really did. Not that everything was peaceful all the time. We had our share of battles, but they were--manageable. Even the prison riot.

It can't be peaceful all the time. But at least it wasn't full on war.

No, it wasn't. Not like with the Daxamites. They just wouldn't stop. Even the one my boyfriend managed to knock out got back up again.

People do crazy shit when they're fighting for what they believe in. Even if that belief is fucking horrible.

Maybe especially if that belief is horrible. They can't let themselves be proven wrong by anybody.

I guess that makes sense. Gotta rationalize the atrocities committed.

Here's hoping this place doesn't go that route.

Exactly. Because if someone proves to them that they're the bad guy, then what do they do?

I hope not. Most of the people I've met so far seem nice. I don't think they'd sit back and let terrible things happen.

They double down even harder on their beliefs.

[hell it's what he does and he knows he's the bad guy. Sorta.]

Yeah, I'm just always on edge. Never know. I don't want to be caught off guard again.

They do? Then I guess there's no redeeming the White Triangle. They'll have to be kept in prison forever.

[and she comes from a society that says in theory that everyone can be redeemed]

I don't blame you. I don't want to be caught off-guard, either.

Some people can't be saved. You can force people to atone, but it doesn't always take. Not unless they want it to.

[darkly] And I doubt that any of the White Triangle would want it to. You don't slaughter a planet of seven billion people just because they're different from you and come back from that.

Oh Jesus. Seven billion people? What the fuck? That's horrifying.

Seven billion people. And it was. The United Planets still did nothing. We did what we could. We tried. We really did.

Why didn't they do anything? Did they think it would fix itself on its own?

Wow, that is a shitty future. I'm sorry.

They thought it was a fringe group of terrorists and that the Science Police could handle it.

It's--it's really not. There's a lot of good being done. But right now, it's being overshadowed by the bad.

[Science police? He has questions, but now isn't really the time.]

I'm sure you're right, I always seem to focus on the negatives though. I can't help it.

No, I--I understand. It's easy to see only the bad side of things sometimes.

I've been told that's human nature. But it sucks.

I used to be a hell of a lot more optimistic. But those days are long gone.

Maybe? It's hard to see the bright side sometimes. [like right now, when she's not sure if she's alive or dead and doesn't know if her teammates have succeeded or failed]

Is it--well, is it okay if I ask why?

I've just .. been through a lot.

And I'm nearly dead back home so it seems like it was all for nothing. Pointless even.

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