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[theweakhavepurpose]

INBOX This is... this is Deputy Pratt of the Hope County sheriff's department... art credit code credit

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[unphase]

I'm not sure anyone ever really does realize how bad a situation is until they're out of it. Then, they can take a step back, think things through, and...try to find something close to balance again.

[theweakhavepurpose]

Hindsight is 20/20 right?

Yeah. I'll.. try and keep that in mind going forward.

[unphase]

Exactly. There are a lot of things I could've done differently, but didn't.

Good. You need to be a little kinder to yourself.

[theweakhavepurpose]

I know. But it's hard. I've never been kind to me. I don't even like me. Even before... all the cult shit.

[unphase]

You didn't? But--why?

[theweakhavepurpose]

I'm kinda a dick. And I'm short and scrawny and I'm no good at brawling so I lost a lot of fights in high school.

[He pauses, thinking about it.]

I wanted people to like me, so I sorta acted how I thought people wanted.

[unphase]

[firmly] You are not a dick. At least, you've never been one to me. And so what about all the rest? High school was what, five or six years ago?

[when she hears what he has to say, her voice softens]

You know you don't have to do that here. At least not with me.

[theweakhavepurpose]

[Like 8, oh no he's so old..]

Yeah but I'm also a cop so I like... should be good at that? I guess. I dunno. It seemed important at the time, but being here and being almost dead - all those priorities seem shallow and stupid now.

I'm trying not to. Which is probably why only three people talk to me. But at least it's genuine.

[unphase]

[she sighs and looks rueful] I've heard that death brings a lot of things into perspective. Almost death probably would, too.

I'm sure that more than three people talk to you. There's me, there's Peter, there's Jo, that's three right there. And what about the rest of the people who went with you on that mission?

[theweakhavepurpose]

Yeah, I guess so. Nate and Kettara and Carlisle too. Alright maybe I'm exaggerating and feeling sorry for myself. It's sort of ingrained in me.

Now I've got all this perspective I could bring home and improve myself with, but instead I'm just..

[Tied to a chair and dying, which he doesn't say because he knows how insistent Tinya is on him coming home with her. He'd like that, but he doesn't believe it possible.]

[unphase]

See? You have friends. Lots of friends who care about you and want you to be happy.

You're just going to make the most of what you've learned in the 30th century.

[she's accepting no arguments]

[theweakhavepurpose]

Right. You're right. Like always.

Okay. I know.

[He smiles cuz he knows this is an argument he will not win.]

[unphase]

[she preens a little] Glad you understand that now.

Good. Because there is no way I'm letting you go back to your world. Not under any circumstances.

[theweakhavepurpose]

Montana. Nature reserve. Whole pack of dogs.

Your plan sounds better anyway.

[unphase]

That's because I always have the best plans.